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The Powers Of Hope such as given here are Creation, Love and Peace. These are the tools we use to forge a communal future as part of a community and as an well as an indivdual.
The forces of Negativity are given in this example as Destruction, Lust and Conflict. They are the reasons behind and for the downfall of society.
:: Cross Training, The Balance ::
We know that each path of Choas will lead to a fork in the road, some are negative and some are possitive. It is possible to maintain the balance of ones actions and obtain a state of neautraitly which by the way is a very Chaotic act in itself.
I am an epileptic and when I was 13 I suffered a massive fit on Christmas Day, my first. I was put into a bath by my Mother and Father. It was in the state of unconsciousness that I had an out of body experience. I saw my bathroom door open in front of my but the I had never seen the angle before as it opened and I sensed where it was going to swing to, which boarders on precognition. Which is the same thing your mind uses when say juggling or judging a cars speed when you cross the road.
So logically if I was able to still deleberate on a level of pregonition does this mean that the conscieness of an indivadual is not static and tied to the body but is in fact a transent entity in its own right. Insubtanstal but able to cross planes of space?
(I say logically although this line of thought is indeed a 'leap of faith' in so much as I am fully prepared to exept that it could just be a dream/hailasiantion) But if that leap of fait is taken it opens such a broad and stunning vista, as I have maintained it is possible to enter other mental states by simply breaking down barriers, this can be done by physical preperation or due chemical enharncements. It is simply the breaking down of barriers. Which has made me look at the world and religous practise in a stark and sometimes frightening way, not that it is not as baffling or as less real to anyone else but it has opened my eyes to what some would deem as 'unfounded beilef structure' with a distorted mind set.
I cannot recall much from my out of body Experience OBE, only that I still remember it clearly and that my mother said that 'it was like you had died and your spirit was gone'.
Now I did not see a bright light or anything else like that but I have heard of a drug that is stored in your body and is only released when your body suffers massive injury. This substance makes you very placid and is meant to activate the long term memory banks. aka: your life rushing before your eyes, tunnel vision etc.
I believe the drug is called 'adrinacome' but I am not sure, all i do know is that I got a load of this drug when I entered my state of 'fit' and have been a wanton junkie ever since.
I do believe in Reincarnation and used to spout strange things to my mother that would suggest at least a previous life experience, I feel in my heart of hearts that even before my fit that I had been reincarnated some many times before, wore the flesh a thousand and million times before, that I would rather taste the unquestioning peace of death again then the circle of life: the circus ride of the living. This is not an over-welming feeling all the time, as I know that it is only part of my current soul and it is only an aspect of the sentiments of souls I represent and of course this body and mind is young.
But I remain a skeptic but an enlightened one.
To quote:
"The absence of evidence is not the evidence of absence"
So I remain open minded and Faithful on one thing.
Mother Earth : )
[ Depression is not a feeling for me, its a way of life; am contronted by people with the idea that I am fake and the happy ones are real but I wonder if ever they stop to consider that their lies are fake.]
If Depression is an illness, then surely Sainty is just another symptom of the Human Condition. I have only wanted to escape my human experince.
